She and I are very alike, which inevitably leads to head-butting. We both feel anxious at times, and sometimes those times coincide. We both have autoimmune disorders, so I try to empathize, but sometimes my empathy button is broken, and I lose my patience. She tries to be grown up and confident, but sometimes her confidence breaks and she lashes out.
We both fear making mistakes and doing the wrong thing. We both fear disappointing people and ourselves. We both fear failure. We both feel like imposters a lot of the time.
But we are trying.
Sending her to school scares me for now, and not sending her to school scares me for her future. Going to school scares her, and not going to school bores her. We’re doing our best.
Today, we are both sitting at the kitchen table writing. It’s sunny and quiet, but it’s not necessarily calm. We have had disagreements this morning and now we are trying to move forward quietly and together.
Originally intended to simply focus on book reviews, over time, KaliDesautelsReads has morphed into its own entity.
I write about issues that are near to my heart, be they political, feminist, motherhood, mental health, or, as the title holds, books.
A thirty-something Canadian woman in my mid-thirties, I have been "super married" to my high school sweetheart since 2006, and together we have two crazy, clever, kind, hilarious, wonderful kids.
My first book - How Not To Blog: Finding Myself, One Post at a Time is available on Amazon (in eBook formats for you clever tech readers, and paperback for those of us who love that new book smell!)
I have tried a podcast - it's still on Apple and Google Podcasts - but writing is where my heart is.
My life changed dramatically when my husband was diagnosed with Stage 3 cancer in 2018, and I am now a writer for a leading Canadian Cancer Non-Profit.
I am lucky enough to have a family that loves me and pushes me to be my best, even if it is outside of my cushiony comfort zone. I have a village of friends that nourish me, mentally, and spiritually.
Welcome to my thoughts. Sit down. Stay a while. Enjoy a cup of coffee!
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