The feeling of dread in that moment before your alarm sounds and you open your eyes.
The moment you wake up 4 hours before your alarm and then obsessively check your phone for some reason why you woke up with less than half a night’s sleep.
The feeling that getting out of bed is just not an option, even though sleep is not at hand.
The feeling that your mind is racing, but cannot land on the source of your impending doom. Because everything is the source.
The feeling that you need to avoid the news of the world and your phone for the day, but can’t help checking anyway because you need a reason for the all encompassing panic.
The feeling that every single mistake or meanness you have ever made is beyond repair and that that is what you are.
Anxiety.
It’s all too familiar and yet feels like a slap in the face each and every time.
Originally intended to simply focus on book reviews, over time, KaliDesautelsReads has morphed into its own entity.
I write about issues that are near to my heart, be they political, feminist, motherhood, mental health, or, as the title holds, books.
A thirty-something Canadian woman in my mid-thirties, I have been "super married" to my high school sweetheart since 2006, and together we have two crazy, clever, kind, hilarious, wonderful kids.
My first book - How Not To Blog: Finding Myself, One Post at a Time is available on Amazon (in eBook formats for you clever tech readers, and paperback for those of us who love that new book smell!)
I have tried a podcast - it's still on Apple and Google Podcasts - but writing is where my heart is.
My life changed dramatically when my husband was diagnosed with Stage 3 cancer in 2018, and I am now a writer for a leading Canadian Cancer Non-Profit.
I am lucky enough to have a family that loves me and pushes me to be my best, even if it is outside of my cushiony comfort zone. I have a village of friends that nourish me, mentally, and spiritually.
Welcome to my thoughts. Sit down. Stay a while. Enjoy a cup of coffee!
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