Today is a day that feels like a lot. Scratch that – I have been feeling this way for the last month. I began to feel panicked and overwhelmed for no particular reason other than that I am me, and that’s my fabulous coping mechanism. (I’m like a meerkat – fear = freeze + hide)
That said, I have changed my mind. I have decided that I will NOT panic; I will change my mindset. I pulled up pictures from our weekend of camping, and stepped away from the things that seem to be causing stress. I started singing to myself “don’t worry, about a thing. Every little thing, is gonna be alright.”
It will be alright. It is alright. I have what I need in my life. Dave is officially one year cancer-free. My kids are both healthy and as happy as pre-teens can be reasonably expected to be. I have a home. I have a loving family. I have supportive and caring friends. My cat is still here to demand pets and kick me off my chair. I have a job that I truly love and that means the world to me. I have colleagues that I respect, and leaders that I admire. I am not directly effected by COVID. I have food to healthfully provide to myself and my family. I have a mode of transportation that doesn’t require public transit.
All in all – I have a pretty charmed life. So I have changed my mind. I will not let myself wallow and focus on the parts that are scary. I will make the conscious choice to be happy and content.
Originally intended to simply focus on book reviews, over time, KaliDesautelsReads has morphed into its own entity.
I write about issues that are near to my heart, be they political, feminist, motherhood, mental health, or, as the title holds, books.
A thirty-something Canadian woman in my mid-thirties, I have been "super married" to my high school sweetheart since 2006, and together we have two crazy, clever, kind, hilarious, wonderful kids.
My first book - How Not To Blog: Finding Myself, One Post at a Time is available on Amazon (in eBook formats for you clever tech readers, and paperback for those of us who love that new book smell!)
I have tried a podcast - it's still on Apple and Google Podcasts - but writing is where my heart is.
My life changed dramatically when my husband was diagnosed with Stage 3 cancer in 2018, and I am now a writer for a leading Canadian Cancer Non-Profit.
I am lucky enough to have a family that loves me and pushes me to be my best, even if it is outside of my cushiony comfort zone. I have a village of friends that nourish me, mentally, and spiritually.
Welcome to my thoughts. Sit down. Stay a while. Enjoy a cup of coffee!
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