Today is a day that feels like a lot. Scratch that – I have been feeling this way for the last month. I began to feel panicked and overwhelmed for no particular reason other than that I am me, and that’s my fabulous coping mechanism. (I’m like a meerkat – fear = freeze + hide)
That said, I have changed my mind. I have decided that I will NOT panic; I will change my mindset. I pulled up pictures from our weekend of camping, and stepped away from the things that seem to be causing stress. I started singing to myself “don’t worry, about a thing. Every little thing, is gonna be alright.”
It will be alright. It is alright. I have what I need in my life. Dave is officially one year cancer-free. My kids are both healthy and as happy as pre-teens can be reasonably expected to be. I have a home. I have a loving family. I have supportive and caring friends. My cat is still here to demand pets and kick me off my chair. I have a job that I truly love and that means the world to me. I have colleagues that I respect, and leaders that I admire. I am not directly effected by COVID. I have food to healthfully provide to myself and my family. I have a mode of transportation that doesn’t require public transit.
All in all – I have a pretty charmed life. So I have changed my mind. I will not let myself wallow and focus on the parts that are scary. I will make the conscious choice to be happy and content.
Because I can.
Kali J Desautels 
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