Kali J Desautels

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Originally intended to simply focus on book reviews, over time, KaliDesautelsReads has morphed into its own entity. I write about issues that are near to my heart, be they political, feminist, motherhood, mental health, or, as the title holds, books. A thirty-something Canadian woman in my mid-thirties, I have been “super married” to my high school sweetheart since 2006, and together we have two crazy, clever, kind, hilarious, wonderful kids. My first book – How Not To Blog: Finding Myself, One Post at a Time is available on Amazon (in eBook formats for you clever tech readers, and paperback for those of us who love that new book smell!) I have tried a podcast – it’s still on Apple and Google Podcasts – but writing is where my heart is. My life changed dramatically when my husband was diagnosed with Stage 3 cancer in 2018, and I am now a writer for a leading Canadian Cancer Non-Profit. I am lucky enough to have a family that loves me and pushes me to be my best, even if it is outside of my cushiony comfort zone. I have a village of friends that nourish me, mentally, and spiritually. Welcome to my thoughts. Sit down. Stay a while. Enjoy a cup of coffee!

Exhaustion

Do I look tired? I feel tired. I feel tired all the way to my bones, and further still, if there was a further. Today, Saturday, should be a day of fun. It should dance and rockwall and going out with my friends. It should be laughter and fun and time with my husband. But it isn’t and it won’t be. My husband’s cancer pain is vacuous – both sucking out the air of our lives and filling the new found space with 3AM pain, and 12am medication alerts. The worst is still yet to come, so I feel guilty about my current exhaustion as it feels untimely and premature. If exhaustion was an Olympic sport, maybe this would be training. It’s not though. Exhaustion is not relieved by piling more on top.

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2 responses to “Exhaustion”

  1. Serena Avatar
    Serena

    Idk when you wrote this. I’m so sorry for what y’all are going through.

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      kalidesautelsreads

      Thank you so kindly. It was just this past week. It’s been a rough one. Thank you for your thoughts and for reading the post ❤️

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