Kali J Desautels

Posted @withrepost • @vanesshenry Revisiting things about yourself that you thought were a part of you?

Jupiter Retrograde. Hiii. Thank you for showing me those cool things I can do; those things I happen to be good at. Especially the things I thought were IMPORTANT to be good at.

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I’ve found myself being invited to do things that used to feel good for me. I REMEMBER how good they felt to do, too. And yet now, something about me, the experiencer of those things, is different. These old experiences I remember don’t quite have the same euphoric feeling that they once did.

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And you know, I think that’s OK. It doesn’t necessarily mean those experiences are now “bad”. In fact, quite the opposite. I can reflect back and remember how good they felt, but accept that they belong back then, feeling good, and not carried into my “now”. Because if I do that, they don’t feel good here, and I want to remember them as the gifts that they were to me. Then.

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It means that I have grown into a new shape, and that new shape fits in different places, or is exploring fitting in new places (Jupiter in Sagittarius = pushing boundaries).

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I am finding that I am invited to these experiences – and as I’m experiencing them ooone final time, I am struck with a clear lightning bolt that they are no longer for me.

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For example, I don’t like that now, every time I pick up a crystal, I don’t feel so great about it. Every time I burn a leaf, I don’t feel so great about it.

Use a hashtag.

Say a word.

OK, well why don’t I feel so great about it?

Because so much of my experience has been about sharing what I like and how it makes me feel. I like sharing my excitement. And now that my awareness has expanded, I realize that every time I share them, they contribute to this over consumption culture, a side effect of this current reality’s optical illusion of what is important. … but I DID once love them.

OK Vaness, then leave them back there, where they feel good. And give yourself permission to expand (Jupiter) in the places that feel good. You don’t have to hang on to things you’ve outgrown.

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Jupiter Rx in Sag has us pulling in; pushing boundaries and expanding within ourselves.