Kali J Desautels

Hey – have you met my new friend? This is Fear. He’s going to be shadowing me for a while. I don’t really know how long he plans to hang around, but the current estimate is about 8-12 months. Sometime last year, really in the Fall I guess, is when he decided to start hanging around, and by the middle of December he sat me down and said that he was going to be keeping residence with me.

I’ve really started noticing him over the last month. He has the funniest ways of getting my attention, including the ever popular waking me in the middle of the night in a cold sweat. Some ways include, but are not limited to:

1. A text alert from my husband while I am work.
2. A phone call from a number I don’t recognize.
3. My son’s barking cough.
4. My daughter looking despondent with no particular reason for it.
5. My husband unable to eat more than a couple of bites of food.
6. A deadline looming, while there are unknown doctors’ appointments popping up.
7. My husband’s pain painted on his face.
8. Bills that are due, while we wait for his EI Medical Leave to be approved.

Fear is pretty stubborn, and he might not take the hint for a while, so please consider yourself introduced and you know, feel free to talk to me, but don’t acknowledge or feed the fear.