I know what I’m not, but I don’t know what I am

I am not gluten intolerant.I am not a heavy drinker.I don’t consume dairy products.I’ve tried cutting foods out of my diet.I’ve had every test under the sun. I’ve had blood work and colonoscopies.I’ve spoken to naturopathic professionals, and gastroenterologists.I’ve eaten strictly vegan.I’ve tried FODMAP.Keto.Paleo.Liquid.Rice cakes and peanut butter.Starvation. I was told to eat only raw … Continue reading I know what I’m not, but I don’t know what I am

Is It Illness or Is It Fibromyalgia?

It’s time for another fun game of Is It Illness Or Is It Fibromyalgia!! Cheeks flushed? ☑️Muscles aching? ☑️Headache? ☑️Scratchy throat? ☑️Intense shoulder pain? ☑️Overwhelming fatigue? ☑️On the edge of tears? ☑️Irritability? ☑️Feverish? ☑️Ears ringing? ☑️ So the consensus is???? Who the heck knows? If it looks like a horse, sounds like a horse, and … Continue reading Is It Illness or Is It Fibromyalgia?

We’re Trying

We’re doing our best. We are tired, we are anxious, but we are trying. She and I are very alike, which inevitably leads to head-butting. We both feel anxious at times, and sometimes those times coincide. We both have autoimmune disorders, so I try to empathize, but sometimes my empathy button is broken, and I … Continue reading We’re Trying

My Raggedy Old Man Is Getting Older

You move slowly now, and jumping is harder. You aren’t that interested in knocking Christmas ornaments off the tree anymore, and you are picky about what you will eat. You are vocal about what you want and are patient and loving to your kids. You notice when our schedule shifts and we aren’t where you … Continue reading My Raggedy Old Man Is Getting Older

It’s not perfect

Life isn’t perfect. Especially right now. COVID numbers are going up in my province. There was an exposure at my kids’ school that by the time I found out about it, it was too late to quarantine them. I spent more money in October than I should have, so in November I am feeling the … Continue reading It’s not perfect

A moment of quietude

My first Starbucks Christmas cup of the season! Sundays are the day of the week when beds get stripped, meals get prepped, laundry gets caught up, bathrooms get cleaned, carpets get vacuumed, nails get painted (it’s on my to do list every week to mitigate my nail biting habit), groceries get bought, lunches get made… … Continue reading A moment of quietude

Self-esteem building

It’s been about a month of trying to make myself look and feel presentable regardless of working from home. One of the biggest challenges has been to find a way to dress a much larger body than I have ever had before. Finding things that feel comfortable and also flatter a plus-sized body was hard … Continue reading Self-esteem building

I am a hypochondriac.

I am a hypochondriac. I am a malingerer. I am a wuss. I am weak. I am always sick. I am always whining about pain. I can’t cope with life. I have a delicate disposition. I suck at life. I don’t try hard enough. I am lame. I am a worry wart. I am a … Continue reading I am a hypochondriac.

International Overdose Awareness Day 2020

Repost• @overdoseawarenessday Today, in every corner of the world, is International Overdose Awareness Day. This year has been harder than most. We have lost so many loved ones. But today we remember those we've lost, love the people left behind, and pledge to do all we can to #EndOverdose. #IOAD2020 💜#overdoseawareness #overdose #overdoseawarenessday #internationaloverdoseawarenessday #august31

Attitude Adjustment

Today is a day that feels like a lot. Scratch that - I have been feeling this way for the last month. I began to feel panicked and overwhelmed for no particular reason other than that I am me, and that’s my fabulous coping mechanism. (I’m like a meerkat - fear = freeze + hide) … Continue reading Attitude Adjustment