#TBT – #BellLetsTalk2021

Before KaliDesautelsSpeaks, before KaliDesautelsReads, there was Kalijd. There was a lot of life in the before. I tend to talk a lot about this season in my life as something I had to get passed to get here, and yes - I had anxiety and depression and an eating disorder and an unhealthy obsession with … Continue reading #TBT – #BellLetsTalk2021

It’s My Birthday

Today started with a my favouritest cupcakes in the world, a Stanley/Pretzel Day Birthday card, and a brand new Smash + Tess romper from Danielle on my porch before I even woke up. It just kept getting better and better as kind words and thoughtful posts and birthday/birthday-ish phone calls were made. My brother found … Continue reading It’s My Birthday

Yesterday… she turned 13.

Yesterday… yesterday my baby turned 13. This amazing, stubborn, creative, kind, hilarious, silly, clever, empathetic, beautiful young woman is has graced us with her presence for 13 years. Yesterday… yesterday, I brought her home from the hospital with no idea what I was getting myself into. I was happy, grateful, scared, and deeply in love. … Continue reading Yesterday… she turned 13.

Christmas Eve 2020

Christmas 2020 It’s taken me five days to figure out how to post this magical day. For 37 years, my family has gathered to celebrate Christmas Eve - we have our family dinner, gather together, open our gifts and enjoy each other’s company. Christmas Eve has always been at my parents’ house without exception. Until … Continue reading Christmas Eve 2020

It’s a Christmas miracle

On the first day of Christmas break, we had a miracle - magical Christmas snow! The tree in our front yard is suddenly a winter bower, the air is filled with sparkles and fog and happiness! We rarely get snow here, let alone in time for Christmas. This snow brought along a night long power … Continue reading It’s a Christmas miracle

My Little Man

Like mother like son. My small man took on lunch making duties today, and decided on a frozen thin crust mushroom pizza. He set his timer, and settled on the floor in the kitchen to wait. If you know me, you know that this is my favourite place to sit when I need a minute … Continue reading My Little Man

We’re Trying

We’re doing our best. We are tired, we are anxious, but we are trying. She and I are very alike, which inevitably leads to head-butting. We both feel anxious at times, and sometimes those times coincide. We both have autoimmune disorders, so I try to empathize, but sometimes my empathy button is broken, and I … Continue reading We’re Trying

Saturdays at Home

Saturdays are for TARDIS onesies, Supernatural, coffee, Christmas trees, candles and cuddling with my kids. I do not take my privilege in this crazy time lightly -• I get to work from home• I can keep my kids home• I can afford to order my groceries and have them put directly into my trunk without … Continue reading Saturdays at Home

COVID-19 is hard on them

He is growing so fast, but sometimes he still needs his mama. Last night, with the new lockdown regulations in place, he wanted or needed to cuddle with me. Hours past his bedtime, he managed to settle in to sleep, and you had better believe that I enjoyed every single second of his small, deep … Continue reading COVID-19 is hard on them

Growing Up :(

My baby is going into her last year before high school. Seriously not ready for my little one to be so grown up!!! Struggling with mean girls and body image and fashion and school and all the things preteen girls seem to struggle with, and the added bonus of COVID is making her less excited … Continue reading Growing Up 😦